Four letter 'L' word

it's been a while since I added anything to my blog. Simply because too many things happened to me in one go that i'm unsure where i should startfrom. but i guess all that happened for a reason. i just realised that love isn't something special after all. no matter how i see it, it just has too many indecent moments that sometimes make the decision hard to come by. true love doesn't exist....it is only what u make of it. and guys out there...don't think that everything she says is what she would believe till the end. as time changes, they change too. we just keep sulking but we won't get anything out of it. always keep 95% to urself and only give her 5%....this way, you wouldn't feel hurt when shit happens...i'm talking through experience. That's all for now...

Adelaide

This is my good friend's daughter, Adelaide Grissman... isn't she cute??!!

The Seclusion

I'm not feeling too good. I just don't feel like talking to anyone, anymore. This is shit as shit can be. Mental blocks every now and then. I feel happy & sad at the same time. Don't feel like saying much. I want to avoid any contact with living beings...

Fillet o'Fish

In my neck of the woods, it's not as easy as u think it is...
Sometimes you chill hoping the problems would dissolve. but what happens when the problem overwhelms the existence of man? The reason for me to feel as such was growing too intense. I went to McDonalds and ordered a Fillet o'Fish to take away. I bought the Happy meal only to find out that the toy i wanted is not available anymore. I was upset. I really was. But then i convinced my self that it is karma. And after a gruelling trip back home through heavy traffic and 45 minutes, I somewhat felt even more lousy. Came back and sat in front of the television and i decided to watch 'One Hour Photo'. I inserted the dvd but the damn machine couldn't recognize the dvd. Shit all over again. I ended up watching the rerun of Anthony Bourdaine's 'A Cook's Tour'. The episode where he goes to Singapore. 12th time watching it. The dishes looked good though. And then I carefully unpacked my Fillet o'Fish and decided to cherish every bite. My first bite told me there was something wrong with it. Those fools forgot the tartar sauce....they fxxking forgot to put tartar sauce! i wanted to drive back and claim my free burger...but I was exhausted by my string of unfortunate events and to drive back there would be a big mistake. I gobbled it down anyway...karma...

Manipulation

An idle mind is a devil's workshop

psychadevil

psychadevil is a friend of mine. She is one guy that i can relate to without hesitation. psychadevil and i share the same wavelength when we start using the creative side of our brains. He is really good in what she does. Especially digital art. One more thing i'd like to say before i carry on... the reason why i mix psychadevil's gender when i speak of her is because he is a hermaphrodite. And a real proud one too. We get along pretty well. We make art-works and write poems until the wee hours of the morning. We speak of many things that sane people would never speak about. He is in me, as much as i am in her. I'm straight and he's not, but we adore each other nevertheless.